hi had cg today... now we're doing this book called "Experiencing God" it's actually a workbook... pple who have done it say it's really good... yeah so amazing when i met stellaarh that day she was jus telling me how good it is :) yup so God really wants us to do it yeah... yup u all shd try it too! :) it's by henry blackaby and claude king. after that i went to orchard to meet my parents for dinner and some shopping... man by the time i got there they were like laden with stuff already. haha mostly my dad's stuff... found it kinda hilarious. hmm yes the great singapore sale has started... feeling kinda excited now *grinz* salesaing down the shop aisles :) yeah.
the sad thing was that i din get the usp job so still bumming ard now hai... but ok aside from the fact that i dun get the extra cash, i've still got stuff to do which is good :)

on thurs i went to this tour of the new nat library at vic street. was a special thingy cos it's still under construction. was organised by the aki society. at 1st there was this whole thing abt not gg cos lw & ernest decided to back out at the last min so there was jus jo & me & marshall. thank God we decided to still go. in the end qb joined us also. the four of us were like the only year 1s! so funny haha to think we were that enthu *grinz* but it was great we got to see the 16th top flr observatory pod which will be only opened for special occassions or was it vips? yeah anyw it was a privilege. yup. the view was brilliant. plus it the windows were curved out. as in it was full length glass that was curved out from the floor so it's kinda scary u feel like u're almost falling out into the street far down below. yup got some really great pics... haha dun be deceived by the exterior of the place the interior is much better :) oh btw when u use the pics u take there gotta state that it's all rights reserved to them haha. felt so privileged to get the first glimpses of the place. interesting yup.

yest, fri i went shopping in the morn... didnt buy anything as in any shopping thingy haha went to city hall, citylink suntec same area again... jus like the shop mix there... argh the Prints embossed photo album was on sale but 20+ for a book with black paper isnt exactly worth it huh... but the embossed cyan cover was so beautiful :) hehe our fav word in aki :) oh well. i like Prints stuff alot haha actually i wont mind opening a shop like that... haha my mum says it's for after i retire :) when to jo's place for dinner & beyond... ahh missed a very exciting episode of Love at dolphin bay but well friends r def more impt than tv rite? hai her house was in a ulu place but we had a great time... haha i didnt walk into the pond this time *embarrased grin* haha ok not that i ever walk into hers b4 haha oh well... we spent a long time over dinner & poring thru her immense collection of dvds... ah too bad the bridget jones was misplaced i wanted to watch the 1st part. haha jo was like having this loan system. hmm there were only like 6 or 7 of us... haha nikki came like ard 11? but better late than never :) yup we had a good time crapping except that i had this splitting headache... nowadays there's seems to be something funny happening to me... oh God pls heal me quick :) so i left ard 11 plus managed to get the last train & bus *big grinz* thank u so much God for that... yup saved my potentially obscene cab fare :)

ok thank God i still have stuff to do to fill up my mind & time. yup and for my studio cos we bum ard tog a lot of the time haha. ok soon my "melbourne" friends will be back yay then maybe can play tennis :)

oh yeah! i must really say that the past few days were so exciting... champions league & am idol final & miss universe next week :) i always feel this wonderful wow feeling when i see these pple winning this things so blessed(for some) so privileged so blissful so wonderful so unbelievable yet true so miraculous so amazing so beautiful! wow when will my turn be? =) was sooo happy esp for my dear liverpool! yup haha am still a fan even post-owen haha love the fairytale underdog victory thing :) reminded me of the treble they got a coupla years back... to see them at big finals is a dream come true already. to come back with the will to win the faith to believe the determination to perservere after 3 goals down to win is a miracle, a divine intervention. like uchenna & joyce! haha ahhh now if only i had watched it live haha. but my mum said no. haha okok i'm still happy =) carrie is ok though i thought bo wd win... i cant appreciate his stuff but i thought he wd win he's like more pro than her. but i prefer her voice. vonzell's my fave though :) yup great voice, nice songs & most imptantly she sings with emotions & tugs at yrs too... reminds me of brandy. yup.

ok i gtg sleep soon. church tmr morn. good nitey!

hi usual stuff for the past few days... tv, gym, online - now msn in particular haha... and occassionally gg out when i manage to drag myself out frm slacking to go out haha... went out with stellaarh :) on sat to holland(jus nice din have cg)... so sad she's migrating to melbourne why is melbourne taking so many of my friends away? haha oh well we had a great time talking abt stuff and all... so nostalgic man all the AC and MG days... sigh i really wish i was still in jc again... things were so much happier? funner? pleasanter? beautifuller? :) and most of all familiar :) I think gg to uni is God's way of helping me break out of my comfort zone yeah... haha holland as our nearest place of semblence of civilisation hasnt changed though hehe though clementi is a cheaper alternative. Yup saw many ac juniors at holland that day... yup heard that the guys in my junior class are meeting up to pray for one another and all... wow it's really good man esp so since they're in army. I really admire my junior class they are committed and worship God as a class tog... no wonder they did so much better, are much closer and are much kuaier :) haha my AH was a great class but we never had that kind of bonding or spiritual strength as a class that AH jnr has... oh well thank God for steph,gra n cheryl though yeah... oh well we still had great times as a class though i think we drove the teachers really crazy at times... the rebellious scholar class huh haha no one else knows all our *ahem* naughtiness :) thank God for protecting me from the worst of it though. pple always thought we were the kuai, smart alecky, elitist AH... ok i admit there is a lil grain of truth to some of that but still... hmm arts fac was a real interesting place to be nevertheless... the divas, the artsy fartsy, the slackers, the muggers :) the funky, the crappy... yeah man let the love go round in our dear co-pres' words :) sigh well I'll never forget my days in Ac or Mg ... beautiful memories i'll always treasure. thank you God for bringing me to those schs to meet the pple i did... =)

i played 2nd keyboard for worship on sun... i really wanna improve but i think i gotta seriously wanna put in the effort... help me Lord! thank u God for teaching me how to play Deeper in Love :) then yest on mond we had this worship team getogther thingy... bowling at west coast rec centre then dinner at RSYC. my bowling was horrigible haha oh well too rusty i think the last time i bowled was in sec sch? oh well i was the youngest there save for the kids but i think all the "aunties" put me to shame so pai seh man. ok dinner was nice ok more specifically the food or rather the salad bar was nice... bbq was so so... scenery was great the reddish sunset, the sea, the yatches... sadly the conversation wasnt great... i think the wavelength was different and so was the agegrp... i was at the table where the older pple were sitting n they all started talking abt pregnancy and all... was pretty interesting n useful in future haha i suppose but not exactly something i cd contribute to... so i barely said a thing. what a bummer. felt kinda outta place at the weird transition age not adult not teen. later it got a bit better though when mz n jm came over cos they're like more ard my age so more things to talk but then it was time to leave which was jus as well since both my poor feet were ravaged by the mozzies argh.

today was the usual wake up late, eat bf, do quiet time, read papers, eat lunch etc read this book got really absorbed but later i went to west mall there was a popular fair there but din find any aki, art books worth buying. oh well bought a top at tom & steph's though *grinz* haha somehow my shopping engine hasnt really been revved up yet ;) but the great spore sale is coming up yeah ok hehe oh well dun keep shopping also save $ i guess :) i ought to be working really praying that i'll get that usp job yup :) watching too much tv now haha all the serials and all... sob sob love stories :) the occasional eye candy :) too much msn also oh well my studio pple are always on at like the time normal pple r to sleep haha like ard 11 to 2am... oh well i guess i gotta go now tmr is portfolio collection day... I need strength to lug it the cost a bomb weigh a ton thingy :) maybe will go for lunch with my old studio but if only guys r gg then i wont go oh well
good nite then

Blessed be Your name in the land where there is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flows
Blessed be Your Name
And blessed be Your Name when I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk thru the wilderness
Blessed be Your Name

Blessed be Your Name when the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it shd be"
Blessed be Your Name
And blessed be Your Name on the road maked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your Name

You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord blessed be Your Name


ok kinda lazy to type the rest of the lyrics but these r the impt parts yeah for me now. Let go and let God huh it's the best way cos there's a reason for everything that He allows to happen. =)

ok bk to what's been happening in my life.
slacking mostly... online... and doing up my portfolio which was due on mond. wah after sch term still must do... ok la wont complain it's a requirement for us to be promoted to the next level. good to do also cos practice for next time when we need one for work and all. Only thing i must say. My A1 portfolio (which means it's size is 8 times that of an A4 folder) weighs a ton & costs a bomb! I hear cash registers at art friend ringing furiously :) no wonder now can open a new shop at taka haha they shd open one at nus we're like their support & economic sustenance seriously.
argh my arm still kinda hurts from lugging the portfolio & it's only from the cab to lift to the studio. sigh. aki exercises all facets or yr self... the physical, the intellectual, the emotional & the spiritual. was so funny in a way... everyone was like huffing & puffing esp the girls from the sheer wt of the portfolio while some pple like zx carries 2 effortlessly :) ahh the need for muscles in aki :)
i think we're all kinda bored... so diff now there's too much time... so we sat there after submitting portfolios slacking & crapping for like 2 hrs plus & in the end went home & din go out. haha well. oh we had a bbq at nikki's last thurs... went to holland first to get food & stuff... sigh we were all kinda inept... i seriously need to practice cooking or i'll keep getting ribbed by the guys abt it... darn not my fault if u take mep u dun get to take home econs... so my mum has been teaching me cooking haha but i dun get to prac so well yeah. ok new thing to do this hols :)
the guys were doing most of the cooking haha we girls jus contributed a lil bit :) wow surprised to hear nikki can cook... i feel so pai seh man. oh well. funny thing was that when we were getting frm holland to nikki's in jo's car it was so cramped we were like contorting ourselves at the back...felt so violated man haha. ok must say the food was good... nikki's maids' curry was shiok :) I had to leave early though cos got worship prac at church but i guess obeying God is better. missed the pictionary heard it was really fun but well i din regret... it wasnt a good day for me so well... thanks to nikki for being a great host :) and for lending me yr slippers haha well u cd guess what happened :) studio 1 is one of the great gifts God has sent me so thank you so much God :)

tv has been another source of entertainment... haha all those chi serials. treasure raiders, love at dolphin bay, my fair lady :) yeah. i read the subtitles *big grin* wed's a good tv day too love at dolphin bay, am idol, eye 4 a guy... no more Amazing race though :) yeah all the way Uchenna & Joyce! it was truly Amazing Grace that saw them thru :) thank God.

ok better go sleep now... gg to ura with lw tmr for the italian exhibition thingy... yeah & maybe shopping hehe. good nite!



ok gtg now

"...The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised."

Job 1:21

C=

vonzell solomon sang
How do i live without u
I want to know
How do I breathe without u
If u ever go
How do I ever
Ever survive


By God's grace. What else can I do?
cryin n hopin n prayin n trustin ...

"[Love] always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1 Corinthians 13:7

Walking home that day, I realised that when I dun like a guy who likes me I make it pretty obvious to him. Not like in the exact words, but I jus send out the get away from me! vibes. But when I like a guy, I dun have the guts to let him know, I mean not in words but not even in emotions or vibes or body lang...dunno I jus get too pai seh whenever he's ard... all i do is keep staring at him or sometimes afraid to look him in the eye, to talk...I subscribe to the belief that guys shd always make the move not girls cos its jus not rite. crap I think I know how to hide my feelings well... too well. sigh why why do i make myself n others suffer like that. U know why i seem so quiet? it's not that i dun have anything to say... it's cos I dun know how to say what i wanna say... maybe i can write well but speaking, saying stuff is totally different. 2+ years of wondering... Does he know does he not know does he think i dun care does he think i'm dao? when will it be a happy ending? :)
who says i'm not suffering who says i din cry i cried so much who says i dun love him
only God knows how much i do

hi i jus came back from a Bintan trip over the wkend... was a cg retreat thing.
hmm it was ok cept for the rain part which kinda prevented us frm tanning sigh
woah that place is like so devoid of shopping... ah kinda boring. the time seems to pass so slowly.
why do i keep feeling bored these days? ahh... actually i havent really gone shopping yet... not serious kind haha i bought only keropok bk frm bintan! must say the pool was really good there... it's built like the water spills over the edge into the beach below... really nice. it's like divided into different pockets so pple can have their more private "alcove" yeah we sat in the jacuzzi pool like for a long while :) so nice :) they even have a pool bar there... the whole thingy was like some Mediterranean (spelling correct?) tropical get up... haha
ok saw this really amazing thing at the beach was like an ice glacier breaking off at a point of something. u know those pics at the north or south pole with chunks of ice?
yeah there was like a chunk of sand literally then like a sunken part next to it thta had water streaming down it. this interesting landform was cos of a stream that ran across the sandy beach into the sea. =) so nice God's creation =) praise Him!
oh well... i dun really feel like blogging anymore nowadays... oh well gotta go sleep now... didnt really sleep well in Bintan. Good nite & God bless =)